I had the opportunity to attend The Global Leadership Summit yesterday. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's a seminar that focuses on growing leadership by using the skills God has given you and by following the rules of life as set forth in the Bible. Now, you don't have to be Christian to attend these talks, it's not at all "Preachy", truly, there is something every single person can take away from these talks. I listened intently through all speakers from Colin Powell to Mark Brunette. My take away was from Dr. Henry Cloud @DrHenryCloud he spoke about being "Ridiculously In Charge" yep, that's me... I'm in charge of something and the thought of that is absolutely ridiculous! (I'm not sure if that's what he meant but that's how I took it)
My relationship with God only began last year. I will not say I didn't believe in God, because that would indicate I had a relationship of not believing. Kind of like when you just lock a family member out of your life, you can't say you hate them, because that would imply a relationship, you just don't think about them at all, they aren't there. There is no relationship there with them at all. That was me with God. I didn't not believe, I just never thought about him at all. When you decide to open the door to God and let him in to guide your life, you'd better be prepared for what he has in store.
Why was I even at that seminar? Why did it feel like every single speaker was speaking directly to me? I'm not a CEO or CFO or CwhateverO of any organization, why was I even there? Why did I feel like I had to be there, even if it meant writing memo's to my heads of departments (who still don't believe I'm a "Bible Thumper" by the way LOL) to say I MUST attend this seminar? A memo stating that me, a secretary, an admin assistant, MUST attend this Christian Leadership Seminar to move forward on my career path as an admin assistant, why was it even approved? Why? Because it's God's plan, not mine.
Hillside 2 Haiti 5k is my God's baby. It's my HIS idea that I HE had and decided to implement. The only problem with that is it's on me and only me if it's a failure. If you have your own plan and it goes south then you feel like an incompetent idiot in front of your inner circle and trust me, failure sucks when people are counting on you. If you are being trusted with God's plan and you fail... Oh boy. How do you recover from that one? I can see it now... The failed execution of Hillside 2 Haiti annual 5k race is a long forgotten memory. Oh well, you tried, it was all you could do... Life goes on, nobody even remembers or even thinks about what could have been. Years pass. Grandchildren get married... Life goes on until it doesn't and I'm standing at the pearly gates and Peter says "Hey :-) Glad to see you! But Boy did you ever screw up that ONE thing HE entrusted you with"
Before my relationship with God started, I thought Christianity was a dying breed. I never heard people talk about it, and I never really noticed any reference to it. Truth is I was just completely closed off from it and that's why I didn't notice. When I first received this plan for Hillside 2 Haiti 5k, I said to God "that's a great plan God! I can see it! A huge pot of money for Hillside missions, but even more important than that will be the huge gathering of people in YOUR NAME!!" How amazing is that idea? But wait... It will never work God! People don't feel comfortable talking about you. People won't believe this is your plan. People will think I'm crazy. Nobody is going to get behind a race supported by God, people are afraid of religion, I won't get any sponsorships because companies cannot promote religious beliefs. It won't work! I can't do this God! It WON'T WORK!!! "It will Paula. It will. Trust in me and it will"
People do believe in God. The more my own relationship with Him grows the more I hear other people say it, before I thought things like "Praise God" and "We'll pray for you" and "Bless you" were things people just said, like "please and thank-you" it's not, people do believe. People do know Christ and God will see this through to the end and it will be a successful annual event.
Thank you God for choosing ME ... Someone who is ridiculously in charge of implementing Your vision.